Early Mornings and Sleeping In

Let me remind you that I am not a morning person. Let me remind you that I love sleeping in.

Why? because right now, i prefer sleeping to do a lot of things. I like it because it keeps me from facing my life and a lot of the issues/problems in it.

why? Because this song describes how i feel about a lot of things and pretty much describes how i have been feeling lately.

However, even though no one really reads this blog and/or makes the effort to keep up with me or my life, i am going to share this song anyway, because i feel God leading me to share this.

So here goes:

I've been sleeping in for days
Cause when I am awake
I will have to face my life
And I'm hoping it's a phase
The walls that I create
Can only make it seem alright
And I get carried away like I'm the only one
Who's ever felt the way that I do
But I can hear you say,
"You're not the only one.
Everybody hopes to get through."
And it's got me sleeping in.
Every day God,
it's the same thing.
Yeah, you caught me sleeping in.
I'm still hiding;
I'm still waiting.
I need you here with me to face the world outside
'Cause I'm tired of sleeping in.

I've been waking up with fear,
'Cause all that I can hear
Is the ringing of alarms downtown.
It's been going on for years
But you have made it clear
That I am not alone in this crowd.

And I get carried away like I'm the only one
Who's ever felt the way that I do,
But I can hear you say,
"You're not the only one.
Everybody hopes to get through."
And it's got me sleeping in.
Every day God, it's the same thing.
Yeah, you caught me sleeping in.
I'm still hiding; I'm still waiting.
I need you here with me to face the world outside
'Cause I'm tired of sleeping in.

Open up my eyes.
I'm tired of sleeping in
In a world that's dying to wake up.
I'm done with sleeping in.

Lord, help me to quit feeling this way. Not only does it suck, but its extremely selfish of me to want to sleep in today, because my coworker's baby is sick today and i need to to work. Help me to stay focused and alert today. Help me not to go insane at work today, even though we both know that is going to be extremely hard, since I work with my parents. Help me to be nice to customers, because when they are happy, everyone, including my parents and me, are happy. Help me not to cuss today. Help me to live in a way that takes people's eyes off of me and points to you.

Amen.